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running away from stuff that was really hard to run away from…

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Even though I didn’t want the stuff and situations I had… it was actually really hard to let go of some of it… It has been about 2 months now since we left our house and have been travelling, with no-fixed-abode and we have accomplished so much and come so far and still have so much to learn all at the same time.

The above photo by the way is me trying to get my feet warm whilst sleeping in our van in Paris! And let me just say –  hair dryers can be an absolute life-saver!

Some transitions are gradual but this one was not!

When you go to the fair and they shout; ‘step right up, step right up for a super- fast ride!’ Well, that’s what we did, except we didn’t know quite how fast or just how steep that rush down the roller coaster would actually be. How could we? And, to be honest it has been quite hard, very humbling and has definitely taken our breaths away. So, has it been hard? Yes! But, do we have any regrets… No! Even during the tough times where we had to really gather up the very last of our strengths and utilise every ounce of energy, we checked with each other… and there has never been one tiny moment of doubt. Just gratitude for our freedoms within the deep tiredness we have been feeling.

I know I haven’t blogged in quite some time. And, this has been due to not quite knowing how to express what has been going on. I don’t want to share the really personal stuff on the internet, but, at the same time, I don’t see the point in writing a blog if it’s not an honest, from the heart one… So, I just kept quiet, till I could work it out. So much has happened to us, and me, and him, in the last 2 months and I don’t want to write a chronological account but I do want to write about the experience. And, just in case anyone is going through or has been through a similar process or just resonates with our journey, then feel free to write to me, that would be so nice.

So where to begin?

The best place to always start I always think is from where you are right now. So that is what I will try and do even though everything feels quite complicated, up-side-down and just a bit all over the place. In honesty, I am so tired. I am also happy and free and feeling very grateful. Today we rode our bikes to the beach and it is beautiful. We are staying in an apartment where they have never had English people before! I have my own washing machine for the first time in 2 months and that alone feels so good… I had been doing the laundry in my bucket. Washing machines and sunshine for drying brings me so much joy!

I don’t think I mentioned yet that we are currently in Italy and today we really started to feel that we are getting our heads around the foods and shops and really  basic stuff. If you are tired and it’s getting late and you don’t know where you are sleeping that night and you have to buy food in a foreign supermarket it can be very challenging. You live on marmite and raspberry tea but you can’t find it! So what do you do? Well, the only thing you can do is have patience with yourself, do your best and try stuff with labels you can’t understand, but …. TRUST! It just seems to work out! Oh I love that! x

We are learning so much about prioritising too. What do you need to sustain yourself? Comforts, foods, drinks, warmth, space… Clarifying the requirements on route to fine-tune our journey. And also, knowing what the other person needs too because that is often so very different from our own personal wish-list. We are also learning about red tape. Oh the joys! …. Well, we knew quite a-lot about red-tape already actually but our current life change has taken it to a totally new level of … complicated! Bank accounts… mobile phone deals and in particular, at the moment… car insurance! I left my car in England (secure, locked, CCTV carpark) and no-one (so far) will insure me…

Well, this post has been sitting for a few days now and for some reason I have been procrastinating finishing it… And, I am determined to finish it before I go to the beach. (My absolute most favourite place!) We have been finding our rhythm and relaxing into a flow and maintaining some basic routines too which makes me feel secure. I am loving the beach and the sunshine and sitting by the sea. I love the sea… and it is making me want to paint water nymphs, sirens and mermaids. I love the fact that our travels have slowed down now that we have found the sunshine. James needs to work too so we must stop whilst he completes projects which makes everything seem so beautifully familiar. And then, we keep looking at each other and he says… ‘This is it!’ And we realise how lucky we are to be doing what we really want and what we choose to do… Goodbye mortgage trap and being stuck in a place where we couldn’t quite find our balance. Ah, big sigh of gratitude. We love being FREE and the surprises it brings!

Now that my energy is finally returning after the huge shock I felt from the shift from one life to the next; I really want to start painting again. I do have my portable fairy studio with me which I will have to post up some photos of because it is really cute! I have been working in my journals and am keeping a written diary too. This and the fact that James has taken lots of photos has really helped soothe me and digest everything.

Well, tomorrow we are back on the road. Travelling further South through Italy to Puglia so I will write more when we get there. Thanks for reading! xxx

 

 

 



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  1. Sally says...

    Awww a lovely read Wendy! Love and respect to you and James for following your hearts, even when it must be so challenging!
    Take Care
    Sally x


  2. Kaotic Kittus says...

    Love you darlings! Sounds like a whirlwind of a trip, but totally satisfying too! YES! PLEASE come visit me when you can, we have SO much catching up to do! Stay safe, have fun, keep being you, you rock! <3 xxxxx


  3. barbara says...

    i would just like to say , you must both be very brave to do what you are doing. good luck to both. much love
    barbara xxxxxxxxxxxxxx


  4. Mrs Dewick says...

    Hi Wendy
    Pleased for you and to hear about your adventures!
    Hope your happiness in your new life continues! Wishing you lots more of it too!!
    Take care Mrs D!! X


  5. Kate says...

    <3 Love you big sis xxx So glad you're having a wonderful time but miss you lots xxxxxx


  6. terridonna says...

    Very jealous of your adventures and wishing you both all the love and luck in the world on your fantastic adventures sweethearts. Be fleet of foot, brave of heart and free! May the fairies guide your way xxxx